A levels!!

Im in the middle of my A levels! Woohoo!!

With Math and GP down, im soo looking forward to 20th Nov!

Girls!

"Girls are just too damn fucking selfish. In love, or in everything they do." - Sky

Oh wells!

Haha FINALLY I decided to blog. Zz. Well I'm been studying, I mean its PRELIMS now omfg what am i doing here. Feeling bored, so decided to write something to you.

Hm.. Things change in the future, I just dunno how. How i wish i can predict, but then no more fun. I wish to do alot alot of things after A levels. Just.. Waiting for the day to arrive.

Wishlist

1. Go out with Mrs Kua, Tt and Cm
   
2. Have fun and hang out again with Tt and Cm
3. Renew friendships with Yg and Yt, well I never and will not forgive y'all
4. Improve myself, learn skills I so wanted to learn for the past 6 years
5. Image Makeover, i think i need this
   
6. Prepare for uni/scholarship apps
7. Take SAT, BMAT, UKCAT
8. Go out shopping with Sm/Xl
   
9. Learn how to drive, and get a cool car
10. Thank my teachers who have made a huge impact in my life
    
11. Go hiking with a friend across Bukit Timah
12. Say hi and bye to all the wonderful people I have met these past 6 years. Probably an email will do. Address every single person, friend, foe and enemy in each email, classify according to categories: 08S03A, best friends (aiyarh i think this one no need), ENTRE, BLYC, Electronics maybe not, Bridge maybe not as well, CCALs, 1D sec 1s, 2D classmates, 4J classmates, YES! ppl, RCLF ppl, ISLE ppl, prob even NYPS ppl, random RI/RJ ppl.. I got soo many friends
    
13. Go on a holiday with family, prob not sure where, but it definitely won't be a planned/tour
14. Hopefully gotta chance to go overseas (on a tour issit?) with sm/xxl/smq if possible, and can i can i bring some ppl along? :P
15. Get into a university I like, a course I will take for life, and start on my new career
16. Not forgetting to develop my current one :)
17. Serve the nation by preparing for it, no matter what it takes to take me to best condition before I go out for 2 months
18. Visit my friends in Cambodia, or Hokkaido if possible
19. Catch up with friends from various groups, Turkey/Egypt, GEC mates, friends from UWC etc
    
20. Go out with the person I love, has loved and will love, and hope that she would go out with me, no matter what, I will still enjoy and cherish.

And I really can't wait for Number 20 to happen. :)

Uni applications

Am i good enough? Should I try? Do i have the ability to get a scholarship and a place overseas?

Lastly, can I bear to say bye to all of you?

My wife?

Hahaha a thought invoked me to write this today. My wife..

1. Are you willing to cook from Mondays to Fridays, and sometimes Saturdays, while Sunday we go out and eat? I really want to taste your cooking every nite after I end off work.

2. Can you bear to see me only 3 to 4 hours each day, even on Saturdays? What if I work even on Sundays?

3. Are you willing to take very good care of the kids, even if it means you not work?

4. Can you manage our finances, do investments, do planning?

5. Can you respect me, my family, my friends, children, relatives, and cohabit with them?

6. Are you willing to give in to my parents, unless you are definitely correct?

7. Can you be a wife I am proud of, one whom I can show off to the whole world, and make the whole world jealous why I have such a good wife?

8. Can you stand only giving birth to 1/2 children?

9. Are you smart, decisive, independent, responsible and an anti-particle to me, corresponding to my weaknesses and help me become a better person?

10. Most importantly, can you love me and only me wholeheartedly til the end of time?

If your answer is YES to all, you can be my wife.

Crashing.

Im very stressed. The world just isn't fair. Everything's not right. I even.. felt like dying.

How nais.

If I succeed in life, it will not be by standing on the shoulders of giants.

News from me finally?

Wow.. Been quite long since i last blogged. Oh wells.

My grades isn't very good, but its ok I'll buck up, hopefully just in time to do well for Prelims, and then As. Now is the hectic time of chionging every single subject, from okay-ish to perfect of content and every single detail in every single chapter and topic.

Well, I love the artsy sides, like econs and gp, cuz really no boundaries, and what u learn u might not use, what u dun need to know u might end up using. Ok whatever. Shall practice 1 econs essay every week and give to Mrs Low to mark. Shall do 1 essay for Mrs Toh to mark, and look for her to go through, and 1 comprehension every week for self-practice and reflections.

As for physics, hm even though i did well, now its not the time to show off. I know i was lucky, on the dot, so must try harder to convince everyone that its not lucky yea? Well, doing 1 chapter every day, starting with this, and im at forces omfg. Damn hard to master everything la. Especially the definitions. Will look through once before every exam just to make sure I know what I'm writing.

Chem & Bio! Bastard la i did soo poorly, same as Arvind leh. :( Chem is not difficult somemore.. Will shelf it for awhile til i finish physics, so for this week no chem and bio. And bio i think im a letdown :( Dashed all hopes ppl have on me zzz.

Math.. Haha will practice as and when, now i will do math in every difficult place that is not meant for studying! Like on the bus, waiting for xiaolu etc.. Currently trying to improve statistics! Haha.

Hm.. On top of all this, i will not sign online at all le. Only from 11.30pm to 11.59pm every night, to talk to some ppl i would love talking to, including you who is reading this as well hahas. Any other important matters, email me, or call me, or catch me in sch or in class yea. :)

Yeap! How about adding onto the list, of blogging once per week from now on? So tt you peeps will know tt i will blog on this day and go read marh.. Haha jkjk! Til then, so long everyone, mug hard.

I wanna be who I can be in the future. Thats why I am working hard now. :)

Dream

18
A levels 5As, BMT, enter NUS Medicine School, NS deferment.

19
New car from dad, get girlfriend and enjoy life with her, get new dog.

20
Continue to date gf

21
Huge birthday bash at my house, change gf, set up a business with good friends

22
Continue to date gf

23
New car

24
Graduate from Medicine school, proceed on to serve NS as MO

25
NS, change gf

26
Go overseas to pursue O & G

27
Housemanship at SGH

28
Work in NUH, new car

29
Get married! Continue to work in NUH, invest in yg’s eatery

30
1st million, open clinic, new house

31
Have first child

32
Work work

33
Have second child, balance clinic with business, new car

34
Grassroots, clinic, business

35
Grassroots, clinic, business

36
Try for Elections, become MP

Dare to dream.

PSC Fair

Haiyo.. Today went for the PSC fair.. Wow lots of ppl i know, but i want to dao them. Lol!

Erm went to 'lunch' with Chongmin and his parents, was shocked that they actually went to food republic in wisma atria. They treated me to carrot cake, tea and eggs from toast box. After that, i bought chongmin and I noodles, lol.

Then met up with Simin, and DAMN THE RAIN omg.

Then finally reached there, and wow lots of ppl. Talks after talks after talks, I heard MAS, EDB, PSC (for damn long), HDB which is like damn useless, STB.

This sort of reshaped my future, and make me realize lots, and refine my career paths and goals in life.

1. I can end up doing what I thought I'd do.. What people think I'd do. Pursue a medical career as a doctor, defer from NS, take up NUS Medicine. Specialize in O&G, become an outstanding O&G-ist, deliver babies all day long.

Pros: Job security(sure have ppl give birth), still can interact with ppl, new ways to do things differently, rather high pay, got good gal friends for me to 'practice'.

Cons: Prob too long time studying, might not sustain my interest, might not earn me my first 1 million before 30, might become stony, rather waste of talent, too microscopic.

Add-ons: Prob after tt I might try to get into politics, or run a business together with friends, or invest in friend's business.


2. Well, pursue a scholarship in EDB/MAS/URA/HDB/STB one of the stat boards, progress up the board.

Pros: Job security, passion in what I do, get to meet people, recognition, for Singapore's future.

Cons: Quite low pay, might be too rigid for me, some have rather no future, like HDB and URA, dunno what courses to pursue, confirm cannot make my 1 million before 30, limited promotion.

Add-ons: Same, set up a business with friends.


3. Pursue PSC.

Pros: Wow factor, politics, job security, definitely created high mkt value for me, and the rest the same as 2.

Cons: Same as 2, may be rotated or thrown around the ministries, especially difficult to promote, and competing with the creme of the crop, I dun think I'm good enough. If i get a PSC Scholarship, I definitely will not be the top PSC Scholar, extreme competition and politics between people, high expectations.

Also, this whole scholarship thing, I dunno which course to pursue. Business? Econs? I realized, I hate being seen as the answer to everything, but the master, at nothing.

ISLE Post-trip

Ooh this is kinda outdated.. You see, I never knew this was worth blogging about until cm talked about it.. So im like.. Is it of any significance?

Well, replying to his post, and telling everyone my feelings as well. If any.

ISLE Post-trip.. Lol we set off damn rushed lorh. That 12.30pm thingy just couldnt work, as we're always late de la haha. But managed to reach there before time O.o

MINDS @ Lee Kong Chian Gardens School, the children there are really sth. Enthu, ener, they have everything I need to make myself feel youthful and fun again. Haha and they're not that MINDSY, i mean.. they are really smarter than normal, woah wo ling yan xiang kan lol.

Well, Nelson and Wynne didn't go.. I cant rmbr who else, lol. We were grouped into groups, Serene, Zhang He, Sophia and I take one group of 7. O.o.. I took this gal called Mabel and Siok Sin, but in the end, Jiaxi had to take over. Woah, shes like some super mum la. Control them really well, haha in the end i managed to talk to the both of them quite a bit.. After a while they opened up to me :P

When we arrived at Botanical Gardens, we headed for Evolution Garden. Lol, here's the tricky part: I certainly cannot handle narrating the story that Sam Kwek made, with taking care of two MINDS kids? I feel very paiseh lorh, always have Jiaxi and the MINDS teacher watching my back. Lol.

My story was damn crappy.. Haha but good! I'm in power. I dunno why, I love to lead, and love to do things nobody had done.. And jie shi is rather enthu, and rather unexpected LOL! Haha but in the end, all turned out well. I think the kids had fun, but trust me, the 'storyline' was LAME! gosh.

Yeap we walked for quite a bit to the big lake, then we had picnic there, under the big big tree. Lol too many buns and biscuits, in the end we are full and had left over lol. I rmbr I was having headache.. Probably due to the heat from the sun, my head was throbbing like crazy. Zzz.

Then we went on to the dunno what playground, but before that we did colouring! Only then I realized that Mabel was 11, and she cannot really control her body at all. Well, it was rather hard trying to get a response from her.. Siok Sin, 10, was her best friend, and she's just like a normal girl, though a bit slower. Well, Siok Sin really impressed me, she really took care of Mabel very well, I was kind of touched. In the end, I helped Mabel colour a snake head band and put it on her head. Lol, and it stayed there for eternity!

Then we went in to play. The huge slide, haha. Jiaxi was perma attached to my two lil' kids le, haha. Oh man, we looked like a couple bringing our kids out LOL. But no interest in her arh! Lol.

Then on the big slide, Mabel got stuck. Ouch, as she really cannot control her body, she still go on the big slide, then kena stuck halfway. Then she sit there. Lol, Daniel and one of the teachers had to climb up to get her down. Phew. Siok Sin was really great man.. Full of admiration, she really wanted to save her friend, though i was trying to keep her away from the end of the slide, if not Daniel kena her gg liao.

Then 4 plus 5 le, time to go home! Damns i COULD HAVE WALKED HOME. But in the end i took the bus, and it took me to Redhill to drop off the MINDS kids, then back to school again. Ooh, went dinner with Chongmin, and talked a lot about some stuff.

In conclusion, I din really enjoy the post-trip. Reasons include:
1. It's a one-off thing.
2. Everyone came becuz we had to do it, not becuz we are passionate.
3. I did not get to interact with most. Or rather, I do not make a point to.
4. She is still dao-ing me, and I dun need a friend like that.

5.. I ended up having to dine with chongmin. Lol jkjk! Hahaha.

Should i just use lifejournal?

Lol since my blog can be found from my username, should i just change to LJ instead? I have friends using LJ, blogger and blogspot is certainly on the decline.

And terence's bday is coming.. 11th July. What should we do for him? No ideas yet.. Oh wells.

NS Checkup!

Woah today i ponned school for NS Checkup.. In the morning go ISLE lol, and xiaolu's bday, i bought her a cake, dunno whether she eated with who.. And during ISLE, yh came. Dunno why though, but she came late, and for a short while. Well, who cares rite? Friends no more, hell yeah.

Then i go NS Checkup liao.. Woah nice place, i could find my way in and out! Lol. After passing thru the scanners, and locking my hp in the wall, and go to the registration area.

I reached there around 10.45am, then go in and first got my picture taken. WTF THE GUY WAS DAMN COLD LORH. STUPID MILITARY PPL, THINK THEY DAMN IMPT. He only there to take pictures nia lorh. And go comb up my hair somemore, make me look like a freak. :P Screw you guys, im going home.

Then next station was.. Urine test! Had to pee in the bottle. :S It was quite 'straightforward' though, yayy i better than terence: i can control!

Then was.. Blood omfg damnn pain. I see now, still got a damn deep hole. And the person was like.. old and looks pro. Wonder if everyone else hurts.

Then.. Chest X-ray, nothing much though, take a picture of my back.

Then eye, where the see if im colour blind, and can see words on the screen. No problems for this.

Then.. Dental. Woah when they say, "4/8 erupted, 5/8 erupted, 6/8 erupted, 7/8 erupting", i thought i was going to die. LOL. Then was the jaw x-ray, i had to bite something which i think everyone bit. Luckily after me, the machine broke down, and ppl behind me had to wait and got delayed.

Everything no queue until the 2nd last: OMG i open the door to "Medical", and all the guys were running around topless. O.o Then was ECG, where they stick pins on my body, and run electric current. Then was height/weight, do u smoke?, have tatoos?, blood pressure.. The usual.

Then alas come a long wait, about 15 min or so, for the medical section. Go in, the STUPID MO WAS DAMN COLD AS USUAL. He just opened the file, ask me if i was ok, then ask me remove my pants, took a glance, and then i could put back on. Geez that was fast.

Ooh i saw lots of ppl at this station, royce, john, banett (is this how i spell his name?), vishwa, eng how, kern, wei yuan.. quite a lot sia.

Then was the IQ test, which made my brain kinda explode. Lol test my memory? Patterns, the usual IQ test, took that in PSC, but this was a bit more challenging. I had to use my whole brain to get past that.

Then end le.. 2 plus, i hungry like shit, so go eat and go home liao. Overall was an okay experience la.

Pez: A.

"Don't waste your time on me."

"Don't waste your time on me."

I weren't, I am not, and I never will.

Jesse McCartney: Just so you know

Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tryed my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gutta say it all before you go
Just so you know.

My new companion!

My current companion: She's sweet, has a cute smile, maturing, fair, likes to initiate many things, independent, good listener, dark black eyes and small nose, and makes a LOT of noise.

My perfect companion: Steady, reliable, responsible, dark, golden hair, big eyes, cute smile, less impatient, taller, with more confidence, less attention-seeking.

NOTE: The above is a FICTIONAL character and should NOT be related to anything, anyone or anyone's thing.

O.o

O.o?! Once i sign in, woah 34 email messages?! When the last time i check was like.. yesterday morning?!

Phew, common tests are here again! Woah damn not confident this time, asking myself, i actl study damn little. :( No mood to study leh.. Or rather, it was quite rushed. And unproductive.

Nvm, life after CTs will still be the same same same!! Aarrgghh besties, who wanna watch WANTED on 27th June? I wanna watch, but not alone horh!!

Any takers? And is anyone going for the PSC fair.. I dun wanna go alone too. Prob i'll drag simin along lorh, since Shuna will prob be going next year anw.. Lol.

Hm.. Econs tomorrow! Looks like i'll be in for a ride. :)

Wow mugging's been great.

I haven't been so hardcore before lorh. Im sure i mug continuously, seated and rooted to the damn chair for like.. eternity. I never mugged for more than 3 hours before in my entire life. I'll get restless.

But i dunno why leh.. inspired by ur die-hard gung ho mugging, i am pressured to do the same. Siao liao u are like some super mugger that i cannot even call at all? lol! damn funny i was like.. rofl? though i agree a call of 5 min will break ur concentrations and u will think of me. :P

Er.. not bad progress, i mean im mugging not only for CTs, but for A levels sake. Covering EVERYTHING, including those that are not gonna be tested for CTs. Figured i might need them somehow.

Well, looking forward to after CTs, and resuming my normal mugging schedule, prob 4-hr mugging day bah.. Like 9pm to 1am schedule. Zz.

Well, lifes good with everyone mugging, but it got very very quiet lately. My phone only vibrates at 1 person's messages, oi where are my other friends? U all got like 500 free SMSes, can gimme 1? Puuhhleesseee?

So much for talking, hehe. Back to mugging! Me got the whole of physics to swallow and 3/4 of maths to go. In 4 days. I think i can larh, 12-hr mugging per day, shoosh.

Gdnites everyone, good luck too. :)

Everythings happening, and im slow.

With everything happening around me, so much til i dunno what to do.

Youth Entrepreneurship Symposium 2008 (YES! 2008 just ended), Shuna just flew off for Jarkarta, World War 3 broke out amongst the YES! ppl, Edmund recovering well, Michelle recovering well, Yan tian in chalet, Simin devastated by what her bf is doing, Chongmin mugging with Chin Hwee lol so sweet, Terence no news as usual, Xiaolu emo-ing every night with an emo nick, Mingquan no news lost for good...

I think i should get back to mugging!

CCAL Camp pics from Mel Wee

CCAL Camp 2008

Wow.. CCAL Camp sho was shiok for the J2,J3,J5 facilitators..

The sunday, they lived in the resort. Cool cool, true, true LOL.

When the J1s arrived and go do team bonding, they go bathe. ><

They led the J1s on camp out, where group C got the beach, group A the clearing next to the beach, group B the rocky grounds, group D in the middle of Wakatobi, the jungle, the worst campsite. Me followed group B.

The J1s had to cook, and bring along cooking stuff, like stoves, kerosene, oil, eggs, vege, noodles etc, while the j2s eat not very nice packed food.

The second day, they woke up at 4.30am and walked back to campable. The mangrove j2s had to leave on a 2hr journey to the mangrove area, while the DBC goes for theirs. The wakatobi group had to do rekkie 4 times before the actual, and do 4 times for 4 groups, total 8 times in the middle of wakatobi. The rafting group, played frisbee for long periods of time while waiting for the mangrove group to come back.

Rafting group consists of Zhuang, Marcus, Mich, Mel, Tiff and me.

For rafting i took groups D2, C4, B1, A3.

D2 is the Sharon, Sadikin, Yiting group.
C4 is the Rui Hao, Su, Quynh Anh, Cherie, Wang Xiang group.
B1 is the An Shing, Jon Lim, Cheryl Ang group.
A3 is the Grace Zhang, Toon Wei, Xin Er, Hanif group.

I enjoyed B1, cos its the only group that didn't sink LOL. I gave them lots of hints and stuff, and they used it to their advantage. Really good co-ordination, everyone knew what to do. And i still took my canoe out, scared to go on board! Lol.

D2 lacks situational awareness, all offers all miss out, but efforts are good, and they try hard, but there are often the same few that drives the team on. But their boat sunk..

C4.. Favourite group! Haha they rock man, and i realize it's not just cuz of Mr Edwin Lim. The group dynamics is, i must say, quite good and conducive. But they are too driven, and dun want to grab the opportunity when time comes, so the boat sinks in the end, the group that made my whole body dripping wet!! Argh.

A3.. not as good, but commendable lah. But they are very stubborn, me and ms wong hint hint no one picks it up. Sad. And in the end, din manage to make te raft.

Pictures of me and C4. Enjoy!

Away!

Hi all, I will be away to CCAL Camp to Bintan from 26th to 29th May, so no new things horh!

GP CT 2 TMR!

Okok back from the long hols to Mlaysia damnit, will blog about that tmr, meanwhile, GP CT 2!

I've been preparing for the Arts essays, anything to do with the Arts, i will try and attempt.

Purpose of the Arts (can be used as topic sentences)

1. Art is a product of human activity that enables the spontaneous stimulation of the human mind, its abstract nature provokes the thought and invoke certain emotions and feelings towards the piece of Art.

Eg: The portrait done in the 1920s depicting a naked man masturbating done in blue charcoal and Tate Modern set the arts arena ablazed with controversies and anger, as to whether this is in fact Art or mere intention to arouse and satisfy the sexual desires and urges of women, and even some men.

Pablo Picasso's Guernica depicted the ills of war from a first-person perspective.

2. Art provides an avenue for creative self-expression of the artist and enables one to see the world from a different perspective.

Eg. Eric Fischl drew Tumbling Woman, showing the exact scene when a woman was jumping off the World Trade Centre during the September 11, 2001 terrorist attack.

3. Art gives a valuable opportunities for artists to bring across a message or a hidden meaning behind the actual picture being portrayed, otherwise known as propaganda.

Eg. Jack Neo's I not Stupid depicted the actual situation and state of Singaporean culture, education, political arena which will be considered taboo and illegal if voiced out publicly. Royston Tan used his Internationally Acclaimed 8-time Award Winning Production, Cut, to illustrate and mock the Singapore Censorship Board of the rigid censorship laws and censors done to the media industry.

4. Art shows a scenario to depict the beauty of Nature and our surroundings, done with vibrant colours and showcasing it to people who has never experienced it before.

Eg. Leonardo da Vinci's Mona Lisa

I'm going overseas.

Haix thanks to my ah pa and ah ma, now I have to follow them to KL with a busload of indian workers wtf. It's a company welfare trip to Mlaysia, and Im being dragged along to go. Oh wells.

Lots of opp costs for this trip.. Here goes.

1. GP Common Test: i doubt i can perform up to standard.
2. CCAL Camp briefing!!
3. SAGE Presentation
4. Class Marymount CIP
5. YES! 2008 Meeting

Nth to blog about~

Not been blogging.. Cuz theres nth to blog about!

Omg headaches suck.. Having one now. Who's interested in becoming a potential bone marrow donor, pls approach me! Thanks.

Not been blogging

I haven't been blogging for a long time.. Until i read my p's post, i realized im actually a very fortunate person.

Born in a well-off family, nobody to fight over, a macbook to talk to me, lots of friends and ppl i can call when im down, those that will always be good friends and there for me twice a year (on my birthday and christmas), everyone else who cared for me.

I realized time is passing by very fast, before long all my life is going to be over. I still cannot fully accept some ppl in class, really sad. I just let one of my good friends bday past without doing anything for him. I din even care for my p who discolated his shoulder for the 4th time, and only found out thru his blog. I din make a point to catch up with my friends. I didn't, i didn't.

I din want everything to end this way. Im. sorry.

IT

Abstinence from my digital life is hard. No matter where I am, what I do, it always have something to do with technology. Like now, I’m using my macbook to blog and type what I have to say.

Good job Hama, Xue en and Mirabel btw.

Life is difficult without the various gadgets I own: can’t really imagine w/o my ipod, my handphone, my pc, and needless to say, you my macbook! Emails unchecked, blogs unread, everything undone, its just like I shift myself away from the face of this earth. Work gets undone, ppl gets pissed with slow transfer of information and breakdown of communications…

Leaving without IT is hard, but living with it it’s even harder. CCTVs, cameras, even using other people’s wireless access has become a crime. :(

And you.. I got 600 songs in my ipod, and counting. U better make full use of it, transfer them to ur comp if u are IT-savvy enough.

Chris daughtry has failed me. It’s not over, he sings, but I believe the end is near. It’s over..
Sitting on board 852 bound for home.

PS: Damnit I passed u my earphones!!!! ARGHH. Now I can’t listen to youtube without my mum finding out. Zz.

Shit shit shit who am I bringing out on Dance night, if any at all. :(

CJC Competition!

Haha after reading my p's blog i decided to write something as well.. Nothing can be better than my p, except my declaring :P

Today was really.. tiring leh. Drains my energy, i was complaining and p feels irritated, but can't blame him, blame myself lorh.. Stupid ppl never come damnit.

HAHA i heard Samantha got REJECTED at the door.. according to xxl, she says the CJC principal spot her wearing something skimpy.. refused to let her enter sch. LOL.

The teaming quite imba.. the rest of them. Me got into a team with my p and joy, and yinkwan (u sure u spell correct?) Hm to be honest they not bad already larh. Just that they damn hum dun dare go high high de. So all offence p and I make make like siao.

1st board: A repeat of last year. We played TPJC first. Two damn lousy ppl. I think they just send in anyone larh. Pls, the IMPs is like.. 57-0? VPs 25-0. GG. No kick. But problem is, we go to first, now we play the best.

2nd board: Against HCI 1. The first team of HCI, most pro ppl there, all talented, pro, what else can I say. National team. But we did well. Or rather, due to a mistake ><>< I knew from start it was a SCAM! I got 15 points, he bid 1NT, my p bid 2H, the partner bid 3C i was like.. LOL. IM SURE. We have 25 between us, 16 possible meh? LIAR. But we did well anyway. Own them man. Even my p din rmbr playing them. They're so quiet, we never talk unless needed. LOL.

Then we din get into Finals awww. We play consolations.

1st consols: Wow I made an unbelievable 6C slam against ACJC, cool i felt that that was it.. And we own own own.. 15 IMPs in the bag for the 6C slam, then was playing good offense, so got quite high.

2nd consols: Woah play against two damn guailan guys from CJC. One of them damn ah beng, prick here prick there, ear 2, chin 1, the other ear 1 wtf. Then the malay guy, sibei rowdy, my p and I dun like. Eeks what attitude. P never ever mess with this kind of ppl kay. And im sorry for the screw up, the 5D-3, i will forever remember. Im sorry. And in the end, managed to own a bit, 21-7 IMPS, but not good enough to get 2nd. :(

Evaluation: A lot of boards on offence we own, then hope the other team din get the game contract. This explains our success. And the use of sacrifical bids by my p, hope our j1 pair can get the game contract also helps. And hitting big big ones, like 6C etc. Snatching contracts, offensively, we rock p. But our defence really cmi.. Whenever we are on defence usually, have you realize we always lose? Cuz Joy they all not good enough to play offence, they hum, dun dare, lacks experience.

But overall, a good competition. Never regret spending my Labour Day there. :)

Finals:
1st HCI 1, 2nd RJC - Marco's team, 3rd - ACJC

Consols:
1st HCI 3, 2nd RJC - Yujun's team, 3rd - US!

Aiyoo.. damn pissed with my mum.

I just got scolded. But sure thing is, I din argue back. Hehs, what for, like I will forever lose de. Get scolded get scolded larh. Since I have been scolded since young, scolded like shit, I also dun even care.

She suan me bridge never get any shit I also don't care. Say anything, I also dun care already larh. I'm letting go of everything man. Everything in my life, gone with the wind.

Bye bye entre, bye bye gal (or gals), bye bye everyone. I'm gonna be a mother's boy from now onwards. Go home study everyday.

What life.

My intrinsic nature has left me bewildered in awe that I could actually do it. I was utterly amazed at my capabilities and endurance levels, radiating a strong field of knowledge around my brain and overcome all odds to grasp fundamental concepts, key ideas and underlying lesson outcomes to fully comprehend what I was doing.

Ok that was lame. Trying to see what Im capable of putting into words >< Today I had a meaningful and fruitful day studying at home. No phy prac periods, so I went home with friends Ming Quan & Xiao Lu at 12.30pm immediately after Bio lecture. Oh, the first thing I reach home, I mug mug mug mug mug and finally fell asleep at 5.30pm. Just woke up zzz.

Omg i can understand le! Damn happy. Sometimes the pursuit of knowledge keeps my brain active, keeps my brain from straying and thinking of others. To be honest, music distracts me. I haven't seen what I'm capable of.

Looks like I'm one step nearer if I continue this for the rest of my life in RJC. I need energy to sustain. I need power. I need a strong force behind me that will propell me forward.. I need my friends, family and people to urge me to study.

LOL Im just like my body. Have homeostasis. Needs a stimulus to bind to receptors, send impulses to the control centre (hypothalamus), then initiate a response by sending messages via nerves across synapse to effector, negative feedback mechanism LOL. Ok i have too much things in my brain, letting off some steam!!

Who should I go to Dance night with? Or should I just sell off my tickets? I wonder.

Criteria?

Hm i dunno why but lots of people have been asking me this question.. so i shall answer once and for all.

My criteria for choosing a gf, or someone who is gonna be my wife in the future. This should be interesting. Inspired from reading this:

http://en.nothingisreal.com/wiki/Why_I_Will_Never_Have_a_Girlfriend


In descending order:

1. Youth/age - this is naturally important. Basis, not considering people who are ±3 years apart from me.

2. Race/religion/language - obviously important and often left out in rankings. Chinese preferably, not accepting indian/malay LOL. Er religion.. any applicable ones, it doesn't really matter. Hm more importantly, one who can accept my religion, if applicable. Language.. pls she must know english, chinese, and others.

3. Personality - this is tricky. I generally like.. hm my friends will know what kind of gals i look for. Cute, shy at times, daring enough, can tolerate my nonsense and joke along too, takes initiatives etc.

4. Brains - unfortunately im quite.. in fact, very elitist. I want one who is as smart as, if not smarter, does well in grades, intelligent, and needless to say, mature. Though can be childish and childlike at times.

5. Height - this is of course, of certain importance. 5th to be exact. Cuz im 182cm tall. Need a gal who at least can see me.

6. Looks - unfortunately again i rank looks quite high.. But it's normal right, which guy wouldn't. Remember GP Tutor Mrs Toh said something about everyone pursuits the best sexual partner, like it or not.

7. Capabilities/Potential - her aspirations, what she want to achieve, room for development and improvements etc.

8. Family background - a great pool where she and I can tap upon when developing. This also depends on number of siblings, her role at home, which help shape her personality.


Erm.. will think of more in time to come.

You.

1. You are sick and have a headache now. I wanted to call you and ask how are you, instead i hear the beeping of the phone. It goes,"toot, toot, toot."

2. You are busy with work, stressed as usual. And me trying hard to restrain myself not to talk to you. At all.

3. You are still dao-ing me. Or rather, I don't have the guts to acknowledge ur presence. I think its obvious. You too. But we are not doing anything to salvage it. And you prob won't read this at all.

4. You are probably asleep. And thinking of your boyfriend, i suppose. Oh wells, see you tomorrow. And i think you should break up.

5. You are definitely 100% asleep. Out of the three of us, you sleep the earliest. And I haven't heard about you nor your crushes for a very long time.

6. You are probably thinking of him, who is in Taiwan. And hogging other's PSP & ipod. Zz you arh.. You should stop frowning, and go sleep early.

7. You are prob doing Math stuff or work. Thank You for helping me with flowers that day haha. And i really really miss you. Let me dine with you one day, alright?

8. You should take care. Nobody's grandpa died and act so normally. There is seriously something quite wrong with you. But you will catch up in no time.

9. You should be sleeping by now. I haven't seen you for a long long time. And haven't talked to you like we used to. And i miss it. And i miss you.

10. You.. some day some time later i will see you. I miss you too, no matter where are you, my heart will always lie with you. Though i lied to you once hahaha.

You. Are you?

Entrepreneurship Skills Test

Add or subtract your score as you evaluate yourself:

1. Significantly high numbers of entrepreneurs are children of first-generation Americans. If your parents immigrated to the United States, score one. If not, score minus one.
2. Successful entrepreneurs are not, as a rule, top achievers in school. If you were a top student, subtract four. If not, add four.
3. Entrepreneurs are not especially enthusiastic about participating in group activities in school. If you enjoyed group activities—clubs, team sports, double dates—subtract one. If not, add one.
4. Studies of entrepreneurs show that, as youngsters, they often preferred to be alone. Did you prefer to be alone as a youngster? If so, add one. If not, subtract one.
5. Those who started enterprises during childhood—lemonade stands, family newspapers, greeting card sales—or ran for elected office at school can add two, because enterprise usually can be traced to an early age. If you didn't initiate enterprises, subtract two.
6. Stubbornness as a child seems to translate into determination to do things one's own way—a hallmark of proven entrepreneurs. If you were stubborn as a child, add one. If not, subtract one.
7. Caution may involve an unwillingness to take risks, a handicap for those embarking on previously uncharted territory. Were you a cautious youngster? If yes, deduct four. If no, add four.
8. If you were daring or adventuresome, add four more.
9. Entrepreneurs often have the faith to pursue different paths despite the opinions of others. If the opinions of others matter a lot to you, subtract one. If not, add one.
10. Being tired of a daily routine often precipitates an entrepreneur's decision to start an enterprise. If changing your daily routine would be an important motivation for starting your own enterprise, add two. If not, subtract two.
11. Yes, you really enjoy work. But are you willing to work overnight? If yes, add two. If no, subtract two.
12. If you are willing to work as long as it takes with little or no sleep to finish a job, add four more.
13. Entrepreneurs generally enjoy their type of work so much they move from one project to another—non-stop. When you complete a project successfully, do you immediately start another? If yes, add two. If no, subtract two.
14. Successful entrepreneurs are willing to use their savings to finance a project. If you are willing to commit your savings to start a business, add two. If not, subtract two.
15. Would you be willing to borrow from others? Then add two more. If not, subtract two.
16. If your business should fail, would you immediately start working on another? If yes, add four. If no, subtract four.
17. Or, if you would immediately start looking for a job with a regular paycheck, subtract one more.
18. Do you believe being an entrepreneur is risky? If yes, subtract two. If no, add two.
19. Many entrepreneurs put their long-term and short-term goals in writing. If you do, add one. If you don't, subtract one.
20. Handling cash flow can be critical to entrepreneurial success. Do you believe you have the ability to deal with cash flow in a professional manner? If so, add two. If not, subtract two.
21. Entrepreneurial personalities seems to be easily bored. If you are easily bored, add two. If not, subtract two.
22. Optimism can fuel the drive to press for success in uncharted waters. If you're an optimist, add two. Pessimist, subtract two.

What's your E.Q. (Entrepreneurial Quotient)?

If you scored +35 or more, you have everything going for you. You ought to achieve spectacular entrepreneurial success (barring acts of God or other variables beyond your control).

lf you scored +15 to +34, your background, skills and talents give you excellent chances for success in your own business. You should go far.

If you scored 0 to +15, you have a head start of ability and/or experience in running a business and ought to be successful in opening an enterprise of your own if you apply yourself and learn the necessary skills to make it happen.

If you scores 0 to -15, you might be able to make a go of it if you ventured on your own, but you would have to work extra hard to compensate for a lack of built-in advantages and skills that give others a leg up in beginning their own business.

If you scored -15 to -43, your talents probably lie elsewhere. You ought to consider whether building your own business is what you really want to do, because you may find yourself swimming against the tide if you make the attempt. Another work arrangement—working for a company or for someone else, or developing a career in a profession or an area of technical expertise—may be far more congenial to you and allow you to enjoy a lifestyle appropriate to your abilities and interests.

10 things I dislike about my JC

1. The slow process of admin staff/teachers when students are getting things approved/signed/accounted for. When u screw up, they blame u. Not saying they are bad, but can expedite? If they are some government organization, they will really screw up.

2. The wireless. Ooh, we are supposed to be a prestigious, most established damn high grades JC in Singapore, but wait! We are moving towards world class! And wireless is still locked and unaccessible to students at all?

3. The Council. It's really screwed up man, not the people, they are nice, but as an organization, they suck? They have generally not very good attitude, thinking they're all high and mightly, and rules over all other CCAs? Have both good sides and bad sides, but yea, I guess everyone naturally accepted them.

4. The people.. Some of them. They are like.. utterly retarded and selfish? No manners is ok, but closing a lift on a teacher, and think that they are more equal than others? The only thing i violate is not put back the trays sometimes. :( I should make an effort to change.

5. The air-con system. Wow, like the JC is so brightly lit every day and night, and LCDs all on full blast 24/7, security systems up, and air-con down? Oh wows, scrape the stupid central control, cuz it sucks. Saving air-con and cutting down on student's welfare, way to go, JC. We camp overnight oso cannot sleep with air-con, teachers leh? Isn't it more allocative efficient when more people gets to enjoy air-con instead of a few?

6. The multiple barriers. Like we cannot.. sell prepared food. Why ORA can arh? We cannot.. do this do that.. Why other JCs can? Lol prestigious JC cannot, other JCs can, got reason?

7. This JC does not give me a feeling of home. Like no ownership of stuff, no CCA room, no PCs, no study areas except library, no facilities, homerooms which get chased out often.. What do we have anyway? Why do I see more and more places being cordoned off denying entry to students, and us students' space getting smaller and smaller?

8. The announcements.. Why only Council gets to say their dunno what elections, other CCAs leh? Saying Council is more important? Do we earn golds from council? Do we earn medals, competitions, records from Council? Why only council can announce, not other CCAs? The rest are often forgotten.

9. Teachers. According to marcu, bio we have "ok alright", ap teachers, one who can't look straight, chem we have a teacher that twitches at every word, bitch around for nuts, physics we have a screamy teacher that nobody really understands, one that holds the mic stand, one who off the lights, one who can't really teach.. Worst still, GP we have one that always end with a "erh1", and to think she graduated from some world class uni. Chinese we have selfish teachers that think students suck, and not let them enter the concert when they are helping to sell flowers?! Econs.. oh well short teachers, fat teachers, those who can't teach, you name it, you got it.

Can practice some.. screening and selection? After all, they are cultivating and teaching the leaders of tomorrow, those that drive the country. A criteria, perhaps?

10. Saying everything i dislike, to be honest, i still love my JC alot. Got so many other things that im ok with, and no complaints. To conclude, i really dislike some things, but i can't do anything and have to accept it. Thats the last thing i dislike.

Wow sometimes i think her leadership quite failure. Haiz.

All talk and no work makes her a 'good' leader.

Lol.

Woah damn stressed today was doing ORA with shuna and shara khoo! :( We lost $9.88 leh, when a club like canoeing made over S$700. Sad sia. Well, its a good learning experience.

Good learning experience for Shuna too, who is quite disturbed by the fact of me putting my ipod nano there as one of the prizes, but no 'nano' prize in the lucky draw box. Haha. We gave off 1 thumbdrive and 1 earphone, haha, left 1 each.

Im sorry for being late for YES meeting, cuz of the rain and all.

i dun like it when ppl ask me go, then i reach, then all fucking decided.

I think i might quit YES.

1. My decisions and role in this org comm is not needed. Well, I am kind of like dominant leader. I really don't care. Just do it for me, and u will be rewarded. And to be honest, I am one that delivers. Get things done with the simplest, most efficient and fastest methods, no matter what, an entrepreneur is supposed to use anything and everything in his own ability to achieve the best results. Well in this team, i feel that my leadership has been suppressed. Like i can't stand people who lead, whose leadership lids are lower than mine. My potential to work and deliver has been chopped off; i feel restrained under another reign. Similar to the case of Elita and I in ENTRE. I don't feel valued. But always looked for when in times of need. Next thing in life for me: if i can't be the head, i prefer not to be the vice.

2. Need to study. I haven't been doing well, a PW A isn't gonna help my moody mood. Chem, bio, phy, GP, econs, math, all my subjects are lagging behind. I need my time and space to work and do well for A levels; which means I must start now. And every sat 10am to 3pm in a dumb room in NUS is draining away my precious energy and time.

3. Andre. WHY DO U PULL OUT OMG. It's me, branden against the rest now. We represent the top 2 schools; if we aren't invited to the Symposium, then it won't be a symposium for all JCs anymore? Now, my Allies are shrinking. Until a complete takeover.

4. SUN. Or NUS. Whatever. I foresee a SUN era. My programmes are being filled up by useless professors, NUS Biz club and other stuffs. My main motive of participating is NOT for CVs; its for my dear J1s. I dun think anyone understands this. I have enough of these 'big event organizing' shit; some failed like PUB; i think after so many tries, isn't it better to be more.. practical? And pls, NUS will just takeover us. We DO NOT represent our JCs. Seriously, we're doing all of this, and the only party that benefits is NUS.

5. YES is gonna be an ordinary symposium. Its no different from NSES, nor Startup@singapore or ANY SHIT THAT ANY OTHER UNI CAN ORGANIZE. Seriously, i have been to more than enough this kind of conferences, and one conclusion: they are all quite useless and impractical; preaching about social entrepreneurship, but wow: how many can really carry it out in real life? Understanding what issit about; but realize, that this kind of things often leave u crippled to carrying out projects? Where is the link to organizing real life events? Who teaches us business, ourselves or a conference?

6. My teachers. One very impt impt point. They not really agreeable on going ahead with the plan. I mean, our original plan is to EDUCATE THE J1s on what they need to know, how to carry out a project, implementation, possible idea brainstorms.. YES doesn't really fit what we want. So why take part? lol.

6 reasons.. that make me wanna talk to you so badly. But listening to you out with another guy buying CLOTHES and shopping on a SATURDAY night, my heart trembles in silence.

And its only in solitude, that one can find true peace. And love for religion.

ARGHH STRESSED over stupid earth week.

STUPID EARTH WEEK LARH. I MIGHT AS WELL NOT BE INVOLVED IN SUCH A WEAK ACTIVITY.

One earth club the exco and members suck. Earth Week sucks. All suck, then why is ENTRE in this shit? Spoil our reputation sia??

One earth really arh.. damn screwed up. Like all fucking slackers who dun do work, then angry angry ppl. No wonder not much accomplishments larh.

Mixed feelings today. Like I really dunno who to pass on the leadership role of ENTRE too. The exco damn chiong de. Everyone knows that. But ENTRE is portrayed to be a slack CCA.

My mum is gonna scold me for not studying le. FUCK. Okok i should go study now.

My leg is ok alr, dun worry. I walk too much man.

Broken foot? Yayy no.

Phew heng sia..

No larh my foot not broken, got X-ray liao, sprain + a bit of fracture nia.. But who cares anyway, i removed a small cast and wore my socks to school today.. The first half of today felt F-ing pain sia.. REMINDING EVERONE NOT TO STEP ON ME haha.

Then after a while, kind of get used to it, and me being playful tried standing broad jumps again. This time, i was careful. But damn sad, i cant jump as far anymore. And my right knee kind of hurts a bit.. Hm. :(

Napfa's in 1 week! oh nooo i better train.. Hard!
2.4km: 11 plus leh.. B
SBJ: 24x only.. B
Pull: 9.. B
S&R: 4x... B
SR: 9.x A
Situps: 4x A/B

WTFFF.. I try aim for 3As lorh.. I shall work on these areas, i have confidence i can do it! Im gonna make it to PES A i dun care! I will take NAPFA, then go eat a lot a lot a lot, then go NS check up liddat whoopie!

I will work on: Pulls and S&R. Everyday ask my mummy pull me can liao! hee hee.

Not going MPS today. Super busy. Zzz. Stupid ENTRE.

I walk alone.. I walk alone..
Though it hurts my leg i walk alone..

Broken!

Oh fucking shits i think i have broken..

MY FOOT!! omg damn pain.. I was thinking of practicing for you know, Standing broad jump. And did something damn stupid. I jump, on my fugging wooden floor.

And guess what? I fell.. ooh.. And i hit the side of my fugging bed and its my left foot!! Damn it. Well, it hurts, DUH. Then i tried walking.. WOAH DAMN PAINNN.. I dunno what to do.. Now like some crippled man liddat.. Cant jump cant walk cant even talk.. Have to blog.. Ok so lame -.-

Mummy rub some oil thingy, and it began to bleed omfg. Prob due to my thin skin (not thick skin), then abrasion against the wooden frame, and touch abit, broke the skin layer and bled like SHIT.

Argh.. Now cant bend my little toes.. Cute little toes! Nvm, gonna see doctor later, prob even an x-ray. Shrugs.

See everyone tomorrow! There goes my night of studying for Bio and phy mock SPAs.. zz.

I walk a lonely road, the only one that I have ever known,
don't know where it goes, hope it brings me to A levels.

<3

Lots of girls have crossed my path.. None has made such an impact in my life.

The words u say, the times i spent with u.. Thinking of them sho hurts. Hurts me so much, esp certain events, hurts me beyond any feelings..

Have to turn to other stuff to seek solace and comfort. People, thoughts, things..

And i am beginning to fall for one girl. bu zhi bu jue. I wonder how am i gonna handle this. She knows it. She says she don't want a r/s in JC. And i dun think its time for me to start anything now. But she's always one i can turn to, esp with lots of build-up stress.

zzz.. i shall live on normally and carry on, and keep feelings of the heart away from my life now.

ENTRE also makes me who I am

Wow, indeed it is not the influence of one person, and friends, that left me who I am today. I was thinking back.. and reflecting.. thinking which J1 qualifies as the next leader of ENTRE. Hm..

ENTRE has always been my brainchild. I live, think, breathe it as much as I love _____.

Thinking back of all the past projects i have done.. Take 5.. RJC-EDB.. Open house.. Gift-a-Flower.. And upcoming Earth Week.. BMDP.. Exco Elections.. YES.. And finally, a levels.

All those projects that i have come up with, but did not materialise, not because they are not feasible, but i have too little time to work with.. IT week.. ENT-REnaissance.. ENT-RE-CAS! Econs Quiz.. ENTRE IHC.. Wow. I really hope that the next batch of J1s can carry them out in real life.

Life is like a piece of shit. One day you have it in your body, laying dormant, and you will not appreciate its existance.. The next day, you lose it, and you feel.. empty. Yucks im bullshitting.

But its true. ENTRE has made me become a better person, one more mature, able to command, lead, creative and critical analysis.. One that even my parents are proud of.

And i am sure that you, and all my friends, are proud of me.

Because you loved me

Dedicated to.. you.. by Celine Dion: Because you loved me.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

CHORUS:
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

CHORUS

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

CHORUS

Adapted from Terence's blog:

17 signs you like someone

SEVENTEEN:
You look at their profile constantly.

SIXTEEN:
When you're on the phone with them late at night and they hang up, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.

FIFTEEN:
You read their Texts and Ims Over and over again.

FOURTEEN:
You walk really slow when you're with them.

THIRTEEN:
You feel shy whenever they're around.

ELEVEN:
When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.

TEN:
You smile when you hear their voice.

NINE:
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.

EIGHT:
You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.

SEVEN:
They're all you think about.

SIX:
You get high just from their scent.

FIVE:
You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.

FOUR:
You would do anything for them, just to see them.

THREE:
While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:
You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number twelve was missing

ONE:
You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself.

Zzz.. Am doing the things i wanted to do when I'm having CTs.

Been busy with:
1. Youth Entrepreneurship Symposium: http://yes08.sg

2. Entre stuff

3. Getting stuff for my Macbook

And slacking around, doing stuff that i thought i'd never do. Lols.

Packing! gonna go clean up my studyroom now.. If not mum will start kaobei me.

WOW A hell long haven't posted here.. LOL.

Woooo first time using an apple macbook and blogging.. Eh friends i dunno whether to use windows vista, or Mac Leopard leh. Leopard sounds cooler.. 

The macbook is really nice.. White, glossy, professional, cool-looking, prestigious too. Mine comes with 2.1 Core 2 duo, 2GB i upgraded RAM, 120GB hard disk, cd/dvd combo drive. Costs $1700. 

Woo END OF CTSSS!!! Yayyy finally, life is back to normal. No more late nites, no more heartbreaking panicking moments, but my mugging does not end. In fact, its just the beginning. LOL.

Predicted grades: Econs B, Math A, Phy B, Chem B, Bio B, GP D. GG.

Well, tmr going sim lim with terry and cm! Whoopie i miss u guys. And all my friends. :)

RCLF

Woots RCLF is finally over. 5 days of crap, actl 4..

Nah not a waste of my time as i had previously thought.

Besides making new friends, namely, wanlin, cheryl kwok, janelle (omfg how do u spell), rishabh, zuoming, daniel, litying, charleen, kimberley, simin, KOK yuling, geraldine, yuxuan, grace zhang, grace tang, rhea, xiao fang, manek, jasmine, Siti.. woah the rest i cant rmbr le.. who are they anyway? Well the rest have not impacted me at all, and hence insignificant.

International delegates i made 2 close ones, salina from CHINA! and chanthou from CAMBODIA!

Zzz? Ok gotta go mug now. Im damn lazy to blog anymore, gotta MUGGGG. BB all, til next time, come here for more info on sky's life.

Woots IT Show!

I wanted to get a new laptop.. see here see there in the end never buy.. some models for comparision below.

Dell $1499
1.83 Ghz Core 2 Duo
160GB HDD
3GB DDR-2 RAM
DVD R/W
14.1"
2.4kg

Description: Normal, standard, cheap, loads of RAM, generally good. But i think their colours suck.. And doesn't look sleek and professional at all. But a good specs computer. Losing in design.

HP $1699
2.0 Ghz AMD Turion
160 GB HDD
2GB RAM
DVD R/W
12.1"
1.9kg

Description: Damn cool laptop, black, sleek, comes with biometric fingerprint reader, touch screen, its a swiveling tablet PC somemore. Light, fast, portable. But doesn't look professional, aka kiddy. Looks.. rather noob carrying that.

Apple macbook $1688
2.1 Ghz Core 2 Duo
120GB HDD
1GB RAM
Combo drive
13.3"
2.2kg

Description: Sleek, white, nice finishing, glam, what can i ask for. OS Mac X, wooo. Good nice extraordinary programmes, definitely professional. But specs not good enough, and on the expensive side. This shit dun even have 2GB RAM or a DVD R/W. Kinda sucky and outdated.

I decided not to buy, but go for Apple. :)

argh fuck my teeth hurts.. can u believe it im growing new tooth?? zz.

anger management man.. was damn pissed with my mum just now.. almost wanted to throw a chair at her.. but stopped myself, let off some steam by doing some push-ups instead..

woah no life today manz. i almost finished math and econs, left a bit to do. :)

peace out, yawns. RCLF tmr!! ends at 8.30pm? lolx gg.

Have fun all.

gp common test was a damn big screw up.. Haix.

Sick for the past.. x days. Hope i get better. Headaches, stomachaches, fevers, coughs.. Tsk.

Lots of homework and sleep to catch up upon. Sorry folks, go read other people's blogs instead of mine!

a-sora recommends 2 blogs to be read:
http://evolution20.blogspot.com - terence tan chin hwee
http://alwaysthinkcm.blogspot.com - tan chongmin, but protected

yeap, rock on.

Thanks everyone for a HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY for me!!

Really memorable. :)

Thanks those who actually remembered and wished me in advance, can tell those who really cared.
Thanks to those who prepared and gave me stuff.. Shows that you actually took time off to do this for a friend.

Thanks to those who wished me today, the whole of today - shows that i am still a bit in your heart.

Thanks.

Fun day for me today, and i got 4 wishes out of 5, good start.

Its confirmed im getting iphone/laptop and earphones, 6th March IT Show, anyone wanna go buy with me? My two wishes.

I got my renewal of friendships from my friends, not just friendship, but the day which i felt loved again in the entire year. Really loved, so that met two wishes here.

Early morning, i was woken up by SMSes by Arvind, Kwok leung, xiaolu, tian, zaw (1.16am), simin, shuna/shara, terence, bernard, yingbo, quynh anh.. And various ppl who wished me, my classmates (most of them), everyone i know around school.

Reached school as requested by chongmin at 7.15am, shocked with this huge cake coming towards me WTF. Simin, xiaolu, mingquan, chongmin, zaw were there. Sang happy birthday. SHIT DAMN MALU IN AGES. Oi im 18 le, pls pls pls no cakes! hahaha. I really appreciate what you all did for me. :) Thanks terry, though you can't be here.

School starts as usual.. Zhang He gave me.. a heart making kit! Haha i wanted them during V day, thought it might be interesting. Thanks! CM gave me this name-card holder, was it from Cambodia? Terry a CD. Dunno what inside haven't open lol. And both gave me cards.

After sch, tian visited me from HCI. OMFG MALU AGAIN. She got this huge board that says happy bday, and with all my 6J friends' msgs and wishes in it. Apparently i think she spent the entire night doing. Worhhxxx. <3333333 thanks a lot man i mean, woman. :) I was really shocked and gan dong, but (luckily) kept my tears.

Ordered pizza and gonna spend the nite mugging GP now. Ooh, nice nice bday man.

However, sth i wished for did not come true. Wish 4 one of my friends to come back to me. :(

The pizza munching book flipping into the silent lonely nite..

With entre, gp and my friends on my mind.

Haha all i need is a true friendship. Though i have a few wishes. I told terence, i dun want anything. I dun need anything. Or rather, I have everything that everyone has given me.

Well, there are still wishes from me rite :P Here they are.

1. New ipod earphones - this is an ABSOLUTE must.

2. A laptop or iphone, i gotta choose 1. I figured prob laptop oso quite useless, iphone i already got ipod liao..

3. Renewed friendships from all my friends.

4. One of my friends to come back to me. Or can i still call her a friend.

5. One love.

So sianx this week hardcore mugg GP.. which i haven't started at all and must start today man.

Finished bio SPA, what else can i do? Study GP lorh. Mug until my head explode yayy.

Waiting for tmr. Hoping something memorable happens. Haha terence alr gave me a card. Am thinking what can chongmin be up to. Zzz.

Shivers.

I KO-ed and just woke up.. Sianx this sucks.

Things to do:

-Flower refunds (Wed)
-GP Common Test (Fri)
-Bio SPA (TMR!!)
- PUB (sianx)
-Math Assignment (tue)
-BLYC camp? (fri/sat)

I couldnt really get vectors, but after tutorials i became a bit stronger le. Use the math assignment to test myself.

DC Circuits after explanations i understood, Current is how easy, hm looks like phy common test wun be like a disaster like previous time. But electromag.. woah can die man.

Chem.. org is getting me confused with ADDITION of more information and SUBSTITUTION of compounds. This sucks. Have to use mindmap or memorization method to sort all the different types of reactions..

Bio.. Hm since when did i understand bio anyway. But HGP, cloning, most ppl strong de lorh.. I better get strong too. And may i ask what do i learn in plants? Calluses, tissue culture? lol.

GP.. Haha expecting another B this time round, if essay and compre dun screw up so badly. Screwing up is common, but its the extent that matters.

Econs.. yayy i understood HIS.. GDP/GNP/NNP! (Now no problem!)

A few days more is my birthday le.. 27th February, 1990, a new life is born at 6.30pm. Little did I know that that 2.7kg thinny no meat baby was me. Diao.

Wishes!!
-A laptop!! Yayy
-New ipod earphones?

Friends, please do not get any presents for me, I WILL NOT be accepting. Its not i don't want to accept your sincerity/friendship, but friendship is what i need, what i want, and what i intend to make.

A true friendship. Thats what i want from all of my friends, and i believe that they have done just that. Thanks.

Haix i dunno why i have this sudden feeling to type something down.. Haha in the middle of ENTRE camp, eating a $3 lunch packed. With my team called Kopi O now.

Am i very easily bullied.. Like weak or something. Not physically, but mentally? Like i get emotionally hurt quite easily.. And affects things i can do. Very sad lorh liddat. Letting something small affect what i am up to. Haix.

ENTRE camp is really meaningful for the J1s, and for the J2 facilitators. In charge of station games in the night, i am sure that the J1s enjoyed it and the lessons learnt are really meaningful. Too bad that we ended too late, and 11.30pm is just not the right time to conduct this kind of activities. Though we succeeded in ISLE. Why arh. LOL.

I think the J2 facilitators learn a lot. How to manage a group well, and how to give really meaningful and reflective sessions to future leaders of this CCA. Haix. I think quite memorable lorh..

Lots to learn for me from this camp as well. Don't leave planning all to Andre and Ms Chiang, cuz some things are really done damn last minute, and my station games objectives weren't really brought out well, and i dun think it was really acknowledged. Oh wells, when was the things I do acknowledged anyway.

I wonder why always i saigang, i fell in love with saigang-ing but hate ppl who make me saigang. If any J1s read this pls do not feel sad or console me, cuz im liddat de.

Ok not emo now, can eat le. Yeap, i shall try my best not to let my moods affect my feelings. :)

Woah one of my guy friends damn sad worh..

Heres the story:

My friend was on his way home, then found out that his gf was at a shopping mall quite near his house. Haven't seen her for a week, he wanted to visit her and just to be nice and say hi. LOLX he gets a straight NO! Damn loser sia.

He went to find out why: His gf was dining with 3 other guys?! No wonder she say no larh, that is what he thinks lorh. Damn sad sia he confirm damn jealous lorh.. Prob pissed i think..

Woah he damn sad come tell me, i oso dunno what to do haha. Dun wanna be involved in his relationships. All i said to him was, why dun u write in in ur blog? LOL.

Dunno if he had done that or not..

1. Judging one by his actions and not by his looks.

2. Opportunity lies in one's hands. All decisions affect everyone, no matter big or small. You have no rights to interfere in the decisions of others, but warn and help him to make the right one.

3. Opportunity is out there. Grab it, and u'll benefit. Lose it, and u'll cry.

4. Entrepreneurship = Leadership + Innovation + Enterprise

5. It is ok to have lots of commitments. It doesn't make who you are. It's how you prioritize that makes some envy, and others happy.

5 things i learn today.

Today went for IHC bridge! With my p terence lolx.

In the end the results were:
1st: HH
2nd: MT (yayy!)
3rd: BB
4th: MR
5th: BW

Lolx good job everyone from MT, we seriously all screwed up the first game, then lose to HH for first by 1 point -.- So suay de? Lolx. We are favourites to win leh. Why arh. Got me issit?

Skills getting very rusty sia tsk tsk damn long never use. Xiaolu AP-ed me a record breaking number of 3 times today lol. Aiyarh she sick larh haha confirm one, if not i pissed liao.

Shits got lots of things to do. Gotta go mug chem spa and physics test now. Woots. Cya all arnd.

Wows busy sia

Woah i would like to complain to you a-sora. ANDRE IS DAMN ANAL. Can't stand it pls. I think ENTRE camp would be a failure. Then he whole day anal attitude problem me.. Sianx i dun even wanna help anymore lorh.

J1s just don't be disappointed. Cuz rite from the start, i think its gonna be a failure. Putting someone in charge who doesnt even listen to constructive comments? ____ off larh, seriously.

Oh yes, i would like to declare to all my friends that i shall stop saying the F word. Though its hard, but i will always bite my lower lip to control myself. hahaha look out for that. and laugh at me. :P

Todays eventful, busy, whatever. Everyone is busy, so good luck everyone jiayouu!! And what are u doing here. YOU SHOULD BE STUDYING. LOL.

I finally found chongmin's letter to me on v day. So touching until i cried in LT. Then some ____-er go say what i so easy cry girly wtf. wdv sia.

It reads:

Hey "sky"/wei chee,

Happy Valentine's Day. Hope that your Entre Flower sales goes well. Hope all my printing efforts (and also my printer spoiling) did not go to waste. All the best! You know, I think all these Entre planning has let me see another side of you - are that is capable of planning and organizing stuff. Though you might think it is "sai kang", but i think it is good experience for you and you'll benefit a lot from that.

Well, my friendship with you has really came a long way. We first met in Sec 1, 1D, 2D, and then after that we were in the same RE group under Mrs Kwa. We were also from Com. Science Club. I REMEMBER you were seriously "lame" last time, cracking a joke or doing stupid things once a minute or so. But i got used to it.

Now you've grown more mature and stop doing such things, and I can now see the other side of you. I enjoy the times we spent together, in Singapore as well as other countries. Hokkaido was really an unforgettable trip. We had fun, relaxed, cuddled together on the bed, and even bathed together. It was certainly memorable. ISLE was equally memorable. Remember all the talk we had about flirting, and also JLC!

I like calling you Wei Chee, and not Sky. This is because Sky is more of a name you gave yourself later, and I prefer calling you by the original name as it brings back all the memories. You're my best friend and I hope it stays that way in the years to come.

Chongmin 14/2/2008


Aww gods so touching. And stop calling me sky my friends, unless its business. Yeap. :)

Gaming and things to do

Today is rather eventful. I've decided to quit gaming in all forms, except mahjong, since gaming is rather useless.

1. Gaming doesn't get u a gf, it gets u myopia.
2. Gaming gives u stress, i realized, and not relieving.
3. Gaming damn waste time leh. Budden MSN oso waste time. So i drop one lorh.
4. Without gaming, i can spend more time with friends and family.
5. Gaming drives you nuts when ur gaming skills is deproving.
6. Without gaming, i can now do more of my favourite stuff! Like friends and blogging! Hahaha.
7. Gaming.. i really no time larh wtf!!

Things i have to do now:
1. Revise GP: Hard! Can u help me?
2. Salvage some relationships, but this cannot be done. At least not so easily to perfect.
3. Catch up with my friends!
4. Catch up with lagging math vectors, chem org stuff, bio everything, phy electromag, which all i dun understand.
5. ENTRE camp this week
6. Help with ENTRE bazaar next wk on 27th Feb
7. Buy presents for all my friends to thank them for everything.
8. Settle flower accounts and finances, do necessary refunds
9. Bridge IHC, i have yet to practice oh sharks.
10. Most importantly, inject some life into my PUB event. :)

I wanna treasure my life. And i do. By treasuring everything and everyone around me. :)

Haha i hope this post disappoints Sean Ong. He's dying to read my funny blogs. zz.

Thinking about life

Feels sooo good to be blogging again.. Though this page looks super empty. Im free now. After a whole lot of V day piece of craps, i finally can take a long long rest. Not for long. ENTRE camp is round the corner of this week, sch work is starting to pile up, relationships unsettled and can never be settled, friendships at stake, Startup@singapore... haix.

Life is unpredictable. You will never ever cherish the person until he/she is gone. Gone with the wind, just memories etched in ur mind that you will forget over time. Forget his/her looks, his/her characteristics, features, until you forget of his/her existence.

I want to say "i love you" to all my friends. But i scared they choke on water and die. Then i will truly love them lorh. How arh. I shall now try with some of my friends bah. Dun diee!! :P I wanna see u tomorrow. :)